I don't walk with confidence. Most nights I'd rather be by myself than out chilling with friends. I cry over the smallest things sometimes. There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me.

There's no longer a tomorrow left, everything is dead.
Would you love me in the morning ?

It's been awhile since my last update. Well, recently many things just seem to get to me. How I wish I could sleep without wasting time. And honestly, I hate those " I want to be with you right now but I can't " moments.

Anyway,
Fuck Negative Shit !

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

I don't know what I've done or if I like what I've begun. There were sounds in my head. Little voices whispering and I found myself listening to it. It just won't stop coming to me.
He who wants the rose must respect the thorns.

Met Joyce and had our meals over at MacDonalds. Before heading home i went to her house to chill. Day out with her was awesome. Gonna head to town tomorrow with J too.
Thanks for spending the time with me.
Gonna meet up soon too sweetheart; (Y)

You're making me sick. Is there a way that i could ever make you understand..
I don't know how and I don't even care.
This sucks. Yea its fucked up.

Just because I appear happy, doesn't mean everything is okay.
Just because I forgive, doesn't mean I forget.
Just because I don't listen to your problems, doesn't mean I don't care.
Just because I'm stubborn, doesn't mean I'm not easy going.
Just because I don't study, doesn't mean I'm stupid.
Just because I'm honest, doesn't mean I'm outspoken.
Just because I'm not like you, doesn't mean I'm weird.
Just because I'm unsure, doesn't mean I'm afraid.
Just because I'm quiet, doesn't mean I don't have a lot to say.
Just because I don't show my feelings, doesn't mean I don't have any..

YESTERDAY's already over
TODAY sucks
and TOMORROW's bound to be just as fucked up.

I love you boyfriend!

It's funny when you're a child, you believe you can be anything you want to be, go wherever you want to go. There's no limit to what you can dream. You expect the unexpected, you believe in magic, in fairy tales, and in possibilities. Then you grow older and that innocence is shattered and somewhere along the way the reality of life gets in the way and you're hit by the realization that you can't be all you wanted to be, you just might have to settle for a little bit less.

It happens to everyone as they grow up; you find out who you are and what you want, and then you realise that the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. And so you keep the memories but find yourself moving on.

Hope 2010 would be a better year for us all..